I'm Exactly Where I Supposed To Be

lol.



[[Car Underwater-Armor For Sleep]]
-10/26/07
-First time seeing Armor.
-Love them to death
-Jersey boys
-Ben Jorgensen. enough said.
-Favorite song by them.

Veggo

Yesterday:
ugh yea, too tired to post yesterday so this is for yesterday.

work was...awkward to say the least. it was also the longest four hours of my life. But hey, I learned something new. :)


[[Gabe Spreading The Message of the Cobra]]
-10/26/07
-He likes to talk. A lot. No syke.
-And pace back and forth...
-AKA pain in the butt to film.

Today:


Well, once Kimmy and I stopped freaking out, our English project ended up going decently. :) I get to do mouth to mouth on the mannequin next week. WOOOOOOOO.
So, going vegetarian for Lent is turning out to be A LOT harder than I initially anticipated. I eat a lot of crap now.
So, I got told I don't have to work tomorrow. bigsmileyface. I get to do a five letter word that I haven't be able to do in a LONG time. And, maybe, I'll go to el cine con mi mama manana instead of sunday...I want to see Slumdog Millionaire. finally.


[[Jasey Rae-All Time Low]]
-Warped Tour circa 2007
-I <3 Jasey Rae singalongs.

PS- I don't know why these are all out of chronological order...I think I didn't upload them as they happened. UGH.

Hearts Need A Beat

that takes talent :)
how come nothing really memorable is happening?
I watched part of Dodgeball and Forrest Gump today. Compelling huh?



[[So Much Love-The Rocket Summer]]
-10/26/07
-the day before my birthday :)
-we were dancing like mad before/after this song.
-very, VERY shaky camera job

Remembering Sunday, He Falls To His Knees.

Demetri Martin ftw.
<3



[[All Time Low-Remembering Sunday]]
-12/23/07
-Sweaty

You Can Stand Under My Umbrella.

I love driving down the boardwalk in asbury when it's dead. It's so peaceful. I don't understand why people are so afraid of Asbury.
I took a drive with my mom down the shoreline a bit today. We hit Asbury, Belmar, Avon by the Sea, Wall, and some other places. It was nice and soothing.
Other another note, I'm actually understanding math. :) BUT, it's the easy stuff so yea.
I'm going to go and try to bum some ice cream off my mom. I want some with oreos really bad right now.




[[All Time Low-Umbrella]]
-12/23/07
-my camera died during this song.
-freezing cold outside but blistering hot inside

Take a breath and let the rest come easy.

[[All Time Low-Dear Maria, Count Me In (Warped Tour 2007)]]Ohai Jack lurkin' the background. This is almost two years old. When no one knew who they were. I miss it. It was fun. Things were simpler.

I'll be posting a lot of old concert videos. I've been watching them all lately. These days were a lot of fun and spent with great people. Maybe I'll do one each day, oldest to newest, no matter how crappy. Look forward to it.

Killin' Tiiiiime

I like stealing fun things from people.
:)
If I had more time the editing would be better, maybe I'll redo it later...
Off to work.

ps-I don't like fake people very much.

Damn.

I missed the three month anniversary of this night.
Here's to late remembrances.

I'm Not One For Love Songs

it's been exactly three months since this night. I miss it.

These Are The Fast Times

this is the third day I've walked into my room to go to bed and it's been 11:11pm. Weird.


EDIT: I'm about to throw my phone out of my window for good. I don't want to talk to people anymore.

Being From Jersey Means Never Having To Say You're Sorry

[it says #303 lol]
Being From Jersey Means Never Having To Say You're Sorry -2/17/09
I walked out of the shower today at 11:11pm and I think everything hit me. Even though the speaker was not born in New Jersey, I think he provides some great insight. I know too well that that saying is very true. Spoken from a true New Jersian, I know I have a bad mouth and never forgive and forget. I hold grudges and I am very stubborn, something rooting from my German heritage. I also don't have the greatest temper which stems from a very Irish family and also, the New Jersey way of life. We say what we mean here and don't really give a crap about the consequences. Maybe, I don't know about every one else, but I know that I, might have something to learn. Like I said, I never forgive and forget. I might forgive, but I never forget. I try to put it past me but I really can't. I hold on to everything that has happened and if that makes me a bad person, so be it. I've learned to come to terms with this and I've decided I need to speak my mind a lot more. By holing everything up inside, I can't deal properly with anything. People need to hear my side of the story more
often and not by other people's word of mouth. This means for me to become more outgoing. I'd love for this to happen but I honestly don't know if I can. Things are stressful and sometime I just want to get away from it all. Move to the mountains and just stay away from civilization for a while. Take a retreat away from the stresses of everything and just be alone. I feel as if sometimes I can't actually do what I really want to do, everything that has to be done is for a purpose, let it be, SAT's, ACT's, HSPA's, College, or just "the real world," and it kills me. People say to enjoy your childhood but when it seems to be taken away from you, how can you really? But, I have digressed away from my point. I think, this year, with everything going on, wordly and community based, it is time for a change. That seems to be the word used most often nowadays. Change. I need change, and I am finally ready to admit it I think. Maybe it won't be the change I am really looking for, but I'm hoping it can buy me some relief and a different way of thinking. Maybe this year will bring interesting events. I'm hoping for a change of life for me. Maybe, some day, I'll be able to forgive and actually forget. Maybe I will be able to say "I'm sorry" while meaning it. Maybe, that day will come soon. For my sake, I hope it comes soon.

I'm So Sick

Don't feel good.
My stomach is all twisted inside me.
I don;t really know how to put things that are going on inside my head any more.
Fuck my new year's resolutions.
I think a change is a-comin'.



why am i so goddamn fugly?

Ain't that the way love's supposed to be?

today has been AMAZING. except for the small part of me being in pain all day and not being able to type five simple words for a good half hour. I don't remember a lot of the beginning of today either lol I still have homework to do since im going to school tomorrow. fail. But, I do have a new best friend from whom I'm stealing some old Pokemon DVD's. Win.


<-my amazing typing skillz after i was knocked out.

I ALMOST FORGOT THIS.

lolz i did. in the midst of chattin' with Butcher and Carden I forgot I hadnt updated. lolz

well, I think this is finally starting to get started. I feel like I never finish anything I ever start. I have tons of unfinished stories and I never finish projects but I feel like this time it's different. This will get done. It'd better anyway.

Bella Luna ah ah, My Beautiful Beautiful Moon.

I had a yummy cupcake at work today because today's Valentine's Day. I dunno, this holiday is so fake. But this year, I love it. KyleBurns ftfw<3

I'm Yours.

i asked kyle to be my valentine. then i said i was willing if he was willing. we are currently discussing jason mraz because i wrote kyle a poem and he loved it.

I Want a Lady in the Street, But a Freak in the Bed.

ahh, interesting sky this morning. the wind has been really beastly. a tree branch got knocked down in pre-calc and the heater sparked. then something fell onto the roof of the lunch room. it was amazing. everything goes silent and then this kid goes, "what the FUCK just happened?!"

gooood day.
<3

I'm looking for love this time, sounding hopeful but it's making me cry.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
WILLIAM EUGENE BECKETT JR











AND









CALEB TURMAN!!!!!











:D
ALYSSA IS GOING TO KILL THE GINGERS!
WE MUST JOIN FORCES AND PROTECT THIS ENDANGERED RACE!!!


oh! and:

Now we're drinking gasoline...

People make me angry. The whole thing in English today just made me ecstatic. So, some people happened to get the answers to our little quiz. Some people didn't do so well and we, as a class, got yelled at for doing poorly. Now, for the people that actually studied or took it without cheating, and did poorly, this isn't fair. Some people got the answers and got a couple wrong so how is this fair for the people that didn't cheat and did badly? They actually tried. They didn't.
This just adding to the rest of the past few weeks is making me really just want to leave. I've been just thinking a lot lately about everything. I really want to just talk a walk at night in forest. Just to clear my head. I want to go to college and get away from this childish drama. Just to see a new crowd and see new things. I think I'm just fed up with life.
<3
bye.

This Will Be Last Time

today has made me happy.
I woke up really frustrated with people, and I have no clue why, but, Kyle Burns made it all better. NBS is getting established.

Dollah Dollah Bill Ya'll

giant headache.
grammys.

It's all about the wordplay.

I've really been into Jason Mraz lately. I love his voice and his sound. It's lovely. iwanttomarryhim.


Took the ACT's today...they made me think of Shaant because one story said "cop some Z's"
I think of Shaant too much, it isn't healthy.


Watched a shit load of movies today. Came home and watched Almost Famous, Donnie Darko, and Fast Times at Ridgemont High. --i still want to say Barrington High--

So yea, friend drama is, I think, past us? Ho Ho Hopefully.

have a merry Sunday.

I got some problems but we got ten dollars.

NBS bitchez.
work was amazing again today. life is starting to turn out for the better recently. jamie is hysterical<3 and joe is just amazing. i love MOST of the people who work there, most.









IDK, I saw this and it made me laugh irl.

I'll cut the blonde one.

work made my day today.
it was pretty peaceful. totally looking forward to the warmer 60 degree weather. I probably should not be doing this and be doing my pre-calc but I honestly don't want to. I saw this picture:

and it made me happy.
WE WON'T FORGET TONY OR JOHNNY OH OH.
<3
EDIT: johnny looks like my cousin lmfao

Mhm, This A-Way

Today has been interesting and pretty relieving except for the fact i got no homework done because of all the drama.

In fact you made a career out of it

I fail at life. I got my first C and C- ever in my entire life on some midterms. I'm afraid to tell my mom in all honesty. I love talking to famous people on Twitter, it makes me feel important.




I picked the poem thing I'm going to give to Ms. Lounsbury, I think.
It's called "Truth"


Sitting with eyes closed
but you can't live like that
ignoring
forgetting
it's not that easy.

You say,
"I can't remember if I never see"
but what truth is that
when you will remember every word
that's thrown across the room.

Bouncing off the ways
and
hanging on every syllable
as it follows you out the door
catching your heels and dragging a thought.

The cookie cutter secrets
and
silver screen lies
dancing on your lips.

Ears shut against the world
refusing
"you can control it," you say
you won't be bothered.

We all know you're lying
it's shown in your eyes
the lies glistening
resounding in your head like the empty footsteps you left.

Every one raises a doubt
what if?
why?
should?

The words tugging at you
making it harder to continue in that process.
mind starting to waiver.

Footsteps stop sounding
ears open to the words being whispered,
the slow message being crept into your head.

Finally taking the blinders off your eyes
you see it how it is.

Without the cookie cutter secrets and silver screen lies
with grace and beauty.
the truth finding its way into your soul.
never again will deny it its home.

I really wanna know, my baby.

YESTERDAY'S:

ahhh, I found this really funny, thank you Johnny Minardi hahaha
well, yea, Super Bowl. no fucking comment.

TODAY'S:


I just listened to Ian Crawford/Alex Deleon/William Beckett's version of Santeria and I must say, I do like it. Ahh, I could never not like William's voice though ahah now Singer on the other hand, his gets kind of annoying since it's all nasely hahahahaha

http://symphonysoldier.com/